My story starts when my father passed away after a battle
against cancer in 2005. To say that this was the most traumatic experience of my life was an
understatement.
Before his untimely death, he tried to commit suicide
after finding out he had cancer and I also discovered that he had tried to end his life on numerous other
occasions during my childhood. To say I was distraught was a total under-statement.
All this, together with his death, had a profound
effect on my own life. My self-worth was rock-bottom – I questioned so many things on so many occasions. Why
had my father tried to end his life when I was a child?
Was family life so awful? Was it my fault? If he had
loved me, why would he have done that? I had no really bad memories of my childhood, just visions of seeing
my father being taken away in ambulances and visiting him in various institutions.
I managed to hold myself totally together until the
week after his funeral when the reality of it all hit home and I suddenly found myself in the fearful
position of being a mother to two teenage children and not being able to go out of the
house.
The very thought of visiting the supermarket, going
out with friends, indeed having friends around, just brought up so many fears and I began having the most
dreadful panic attacks. Even being caught at a traffic light turning red when I actually did venture out of
the house made me feel as though I was going to die there and then………..
I looked at different therapies but nothing seemed to
work. Then one day, quite by chance, as I was googling alternative therapies, I found Emotional Freedom
Therapy (EFT) which was described as a non-invasive form of acupuncture – an energy therapy which consisted
of tapping on various acupressure points whilst dealing with negative emotions.
I was intrigued and as I had never heard of it before,
I decided to look further. I found an EFT Practitioner close by and, there and then, I rang her and
explained what was happening to me. She listened attentively and said that she thought EFT would be able to
help me. We made an appointment for me to visit her that very week.
Somehow, I managed to drive the 20 miles to the
session and, within one hour, I couldn’t believe the transformation that had taken place in myself. Instead
of breaking down every time I thought of my father, I felt at peace and to this very day I have never felt
the need to cry over losing him. I think of him and the happy memories we had together and smile
instead.
I started venturing out again and the panic attacks
subsided.
As I went further afield, of course, the fear of would
I have another panic attack came over me. But as I learnt more and more about EFT and did EFT on myself,
these fears became less and less. I decided to train as an EFT Practitioner and, for the first time in my
life, felt brave enough to drive into Manchester on my own – something even before my father died I would
never have attempted.
By the time October 2006 came, I was on my way to
London on the train on my own for the first EFT Masters’ Conference – what a feeling of elation I got and I
felt so proud of myself. In November, I finally reached Advanced Level 3 Practitioner level and was
practising EFT on anyone and everyone I met. I was so passionate about what EFT had done for me – I was a
prime example of how fantastic EFT was and how well it worked.
The crowning glory of all this came in the following
June, I found myself on a plane with my teenage daughter on my way to Dubai for a holiday without even a
moment’s thought of what could happen to me? Would I have a panic attack on the plane? Would I be sick
before the taxi journey back to the airport?
It wasn’t until I was coming home that I realised how
far I had come since the year before – when I couldn’t even get into the car to take my daughter to school
and here I was flying half-way around the world without giving it a moment’s thought.
How wonderful that feeling was – I was finally the
confident outgoing woman I always knew I could be. I know that without EFT, there was no way I could have
done any of it.
Since that time, my life has changed in so many ways
and there are so many more things to share with everyone.
I am now an NLP Master Practitioner & Coach, a
Reiki Master & Trainer and I have trained as an EFT Trainer and love running courses to help other
people learn this wonderful technique.
I am so passionate about the way that EFT has changed
my life, my self-beliefs and writings on my wall, I know now that the real me is now ready to take on the
world
J